Higashida Explains Autism From The Inside Out, Reviewed in the United States on May 5, 2014. Kids in strict Muslim societies would read books by Americans. The story is, in a way, The Reason I Jump but re-framed and re-hung in fictional form. I feel most at home in the school that talks about 'intelligences' rather than intelligence in the singular, whereby intelligence is a fuzzy cluster of aptitudes: numerical, emotional, logical, abstract, artistic, 'common sense' and linguistic. When author David Mitchell's son was diagnosed with autism at three years old, the British author and his wife Keiko Yoshida felt lost, unsure of what was happening inside their sons head. "What is the Writer's Responsibility To Those Unable to Tell Their Own Stories? [9] Mitchell has also collaborated with the duo, by contributing two short stories to their art exhibits in 2011 and 2014. 1996-2023, Amazon.com, Inc. or its affiliates, The Reason I Jump: one boy's voice from the silence of autism, Add Audible narration to your purchase for just, By purchasing this title, you agree to Audible's. Bring it back. If you have just had an autism diagnosis for your child this makes you really think of the struggles your child faces and gives you a wonderful insight to what may be going through your childs head. VOICE FROM THE SILENCE OF AUTISM by Naoki Higashida was published by Sceptre in a translation from the Japanese by David Mitchell and KA Yoshida and became a Sunday Times and New York Times bestseller. Reason I Jump: One Boy's Voice from the Silence of Autism by Higashida, Naoki; Mitchell, David (TRN); Yoshida, Keiko (TRN) and a great selection of related books, art and collectibles available now at AbeBooks.com. In 2013, THE REASON I JUMP: ONE BOY'S VOICE FROM THE SILENCE OF AUTISM by Naoki Higashida was published by Sceptre in a translation from the Japanese by David Mitchell and KA Yoshida and became a Sunday Times and New York Times bestseller. There was a problem loading your book clubs. Yet for those people born onto the autistic spectrum, this unedited, unfiltered and scary-as-all-hell reality is home. Naoki Higashida was born in 1992 and was diagnosed with autism at the age of five. DM: Our goal was to write the book as Naoki would have done if he was a 13 year-old British kid with autism, rather than a 13 year-old Japanese kid with autism. In terms of public knowledge about autism, Europe is a decade behind the States, and Japan's about a decade behind us, and Naoki would view his role as that of an autism advocate, to close that gap. Ive cried happy and sad tears reading this book. The Reason I Jump, written by Naoki Higashida and translated by David Mitchell absolutely grasped my mind and brought it right back into its seat the moment I opened the book. When an autistic child screams at inconsequential things, or bangs her head against the floor, or rocks back and forth for hours, parents despair at understanding why. After graduating from Kent University, he taught English in Japan, where he wrote his first novel, GHOSTWRITTEN. He's happy to report that people who've seen The Reason I Jump, have told him they found the film expanded and changed their knowledge and attitudes toward people with autism. Keiko was born in Andover, Massachusetts. Ce projet est financ en partie par le gouvernement du Canada. Sometimes he has to start a sentence multiple times, but he'll then get through his answer and then I'll respond and ask him something else. Of course, it hasnt worked like that. [9] Mitchell has claimed that there is video evidence[10] showing that Hagashida is pointing to Japanese characters without any touching;[11] however, Dr. Fein and Dr. Kamio claim that in one video where he is featured, his mother is constantly guiding his arm. Why do you hurt yourself? It takes these kids years to learn how to do this and I just want to scream at the sceptics and say 'how dare you'.". Humor is a delightful sensation, and an antidote to many ills. X Check stock. This book takes about ninety minutes to read, and it will stretch your vision of what it is to be human.Andrew Solomon, The Times (U.K.) We have our received ideas, we believe they correspond roughly to the way things are, then a book comes along that simply blows all this so-called knowledge out of the water. He agrees with Hill's proposition that there is a temptingly easy cowardice to assuming that non-verbal equals a lack of thought. He has also written opera libretti and screenplays. Its felt like an endangered quality over the past four years: David Mitchell. I think we talk more than other couples as a result - we have to talk. Was that important for you?By its very existence, it explodes some of the more pernicious, hurtful, despair-inducing myths. In April 2021, he became Chief Strategy Officer and Executive Officer of Corporate Strategy and . It talks about the afterlife - it's just so randomly put in & doesn't fit in with the themes of the book. Do you ever get confused for your famous comedian namesake?We get each others gig offers sometimes. Mitchell lived in Sicily for a year, then moved to Hiroshima, Japan, where he taught English to technical students for eight years, before returning to England, where he could live on his earnings as a writer and support his pregnant wife. This isn't easy for him, but he usually manages okay. Once you understand how Higashida managed to write this book, you lose your heart to him.New Statesman (U.K.) Astonishing. Writer David Mitchell met Keiko Yoshida while they were both teaching at a school in Hiroshima. We don't want to have any misunderstandings. And, practically, it helped us understand things like our sons meltdowns, his sudden inconsolable sobbing or his bursts of joyous, giggly happiness. This book gives us autism from the inside, as we have never seen it. Its explanation, advice and, most poignantly, its guiltoffers readers eloquent access into an almost entirely unknown world. Descriptions of panic, distress and the isolation that autistic children feel as a result of the greater worlds ignorance of their condition are counterbalanced by the most astonishing glimpses of autisms exhilaration. (Youll have started already, because the first reaction of friends and family desperate to help is to send clippings, Web links and literature, however tangential to your own situation.) A glimpse into a corner of a secret world . For me it's not only wrong - that's the ethically dubious position to take. Includes delivery to USA. Sentience itself is not so much a fact to be taken for granted, but a brickby-brick, self-built construct requiring constant maintenance. I think in the 00s, we both quietly assumed the other would vanish into obscurity but that hasnt happened. These are the most vivid and mesmerising moments of the book., pushes beyond the notion of autism as a disability, and reveals it as simply a different way of being, and of seeing. David Mitchell is the author of seven books, including Cloud Atlas and The Bone Clocks.Along with his wife, Keiko Yoshida, Mitchell is also the translator of Naoki Higashida's memoir The Reason I . It looks like WhatsApp is not installed on your phone. [20] In an essay for Random House, Mitchell wrote:[21]. We cannot change the fact of autism, but we can address ignorance about it. Mitchell says there have been swirls of controversy around methods and aids used by the non-verbal for communication, particularly around a methodology developed in the 1990s called facilitated communication. "It isn't easy. Keiko is of Japanese descent. It would be unwise to describe a relationship between two abstract nouns without having a decent intellectual grip on what those nouns are. English. I've read The Earthsea Trilogy by Ursula K. Le Guin every decade of my life, along with The Left Hand of Darkness and The Dispossessed by the same author. What, in your view, is the relationship between language and intelligence? This amazing book is published by a great maker A , wrote a beautiful Aunt Jane of Kentucky, . The description on here simply refers to it being written by a child with Autism. He's now about 20, and he's doing okay. It felt like evidence that we hadnt lost our son. Keiko Lauren Yoshida (b. June 11, 1984) is a former ZOOMer from the show was in season 1 of the revived version of ZOOM. What can you tell us?Nothing about the plot, or scary entertainment lawyers will come and get me. Then I read Naokis book and wanted to say: Im so sorry, I didnt know. The book ends with Naokis short story Im Right Here. I stammered, I still do, which internalised me linguistically. Higashida is living proof of something we should all remember: in every autistic child, however cut off and distant they may outwardly seem, there resides a warm, beating heart.Financial Times (U.K.) Higashidas childs-eye view of autism is as much a winsome work of the imagination as it is a users manual for parents, carers and teachers. You can feel the plates of your skull, plus your facial muscles and your jaw; your head feels trapped inside a motorcycle helmet three sizes too small which may or may not explain why the air conditioner is as deafening as an electric drill, but your fatherwhos right here in front of yousounds as if hes speaking to you from a cellphone, on a train going through lots of short tunnels, in fluent Cantonese. [6] In recent years he has also written opera libretti. Many How to Help Your Autistic Child manuals have a doctrinaire spin, with generous helpings of and . Can you say what functional or narrative purpose they serve in the book? Her students discovered her "Zoom" past and spread the word like wildfire around the school. "This effortless absence of a gap between speech and thought, it's an 'app' [or technique] he hasn't got. . Written by Naoki Higashida, a very smart, very self-aware, and very charming thirteen-year-old boy with autism, it is a one-of-a . DM: It would be unwise to describe a relationship between two abstract nouns without having a decent intellectual grip on what those nouns are. Mitchell has a stammer[22] and considers the film The King's Speech (2010) to be one of the most accurate portrayals of what it is like to be a stammerer:[22] "I'd probably still be avoiding the subject today had I not outed myself by writing a semi-autobiographical novel, Black Swan Green, narrated by a stammering 13-year-old. , David Mitchell, Keiko Yoshida ( 609 ) . . Yoshida. Anyone struggling to understand autism will be grateful for the book and translation. Kirkus Reviews. 4.7 out of 5 stars 708 ratings . Mitchell and his wife Yoshida are working with their son toward using a letter board to communicate. Please use a different way to share. US$9.57 US$12.03 You save US$2.46. Is another novel in the pipeline?Short stories, actually. We had no idea what was happening in his head or how to help him. This involves him reading 2a presentation aloud, and taking questions from the audience, which he answers by typing. But now youre on your own.Now your mind is a room where twenty radios, all tuned to different stations, are blaring out voices and music. www .davidmitchellbooks .com. Keiko wore braces while she was on ZOOM. Aburatani, Hiroyuki 14, 1139. The Reason I Jump by Naoki Higashida, David Mitchell, Keiko Yoshida and a great selection of related books, art and collectibles available now at AbeBooks.com. . Despite cultural differences, both share a love of all things Japanese - except, that is, David's attempts to speak it, Original reporting and incisive analysis, direct from the Guardian every morning. He has also written an enigmatic story, 'A Journey', especially for this edition, which is introduced by David Mitchell (cotranslator with Keiko Yoshida). Researchers dismiss the authenticity of Higashida's writings.[4]. Higashida was diagnosed with autism spectrum (or 'autism spectrum disorder', ASD) when he was five years old and has limited verbal communication skills. te su 2013. on i njegova ena Keiko Yoshida preveli na engleski jezik knjigu Naokija Higashide (13-godinjeg djeaka iz Japana kojemu je dijagnosticiran . Do you know what has happened to the author since the book was published? The fabric softener in your sweater smells as strong as air freshener fired up your nostrils. It was filmed under Covid protocols, mostly in Berlin, and its now in post-production. Reprinted by permission. An old English professor from my university used to say, "Not liking poetry is like not liking ice cream." The address was correct and I have directed other purchases there but it was returned. "Twenty years ago there would have been no special needs units in mainstream schools, but now there's this idea that if it's possible to have a special needs unit within a mainstream school then this is pretty good. It's very exciting to see how he progresses with his work. He said the book also contains many familiar tropes that have been propagated by advocates of facilitated communication, such as "Higashida's claim that people with autism are like 'travellers from a distant, distant past' who have come'to help the people of the world remember what truly matters for the Earth,'" which Fitzpatrick compared to the notion promoted by anti-immunisation advocates that autistic children are "heralds of environmental catastrophe".[12]. This article was published more than 5 years ago. Its author, Naoki Higashida, was born in 1992 and was still in junior high school when the book was published. Shop now. In its quirky humour and courage, it resembles Albert Espinosas Spanish bestseller, The Yellow World, which captured the inner world of childhood cancer. . Mary Oliver is superlative ice cream. Update your device or payment method, cancel individual pre-orders or your subscription at. Overall, I found the book difficult to read & it came across more as a book written by a family member of an Autistic person that by an Autistic person themself. Phrasal and lexical repetition is less of a vice in Japanese - it's almost a virtue - so varying Naoki's phrasing, while keeping the meaning, was a ball we had to keep our eyes on. "The change can come from the aggregate efforts of activists or research, or more enlightened trends that society embarks upon," he says. [1], Mitchell's first novel, Ghostwritten (1999), takes place in locations ranging from Okinawa in Japan to Mongolia to pre-Millennial New York City, as nine narrators tell stories that interlock and intersect. . [Higashidas] insights . . David Mitchell: I went to Japan in 1994 intending to stay there for one or two years, but I'm still there. "Yes it does cost stamina, yes it does cost lots of emails, yes it does cost favours and contacts and time and energy to get a bare minimum of support systems in place for your kid in schools. The three characters used for the word autism in Japanese signify self, shut and illness. My imagination converts these characters into a prisoner locked up and forgotten inside a solitary confinement cell waiting for someone, anyone, to realize he or she is in there. Did you meet Naoki Higashida? In 2013, THE REASON I JUMP: ONE BOY'S VOICE FROM THE SILENCE OF AUTISM by Naoki Higashida was published by Sceptre in a translation from the Japanese by David Mitchell and KA Yoshida and became a Sunday Times and New York Times bestseller. 135 pages | first published 2005. . There are some stories randomly inserted between some of the chapters, which don't really add to the book - in fact, they don't fit into the book in the slightest. The Reason I Jump builds one of the strongest bridges yet constructed between the world of autism and the neurotypical world. Its really him and thats pretty damn wonderful. I was like Mate, helping spread the message is the least I can do.. He has been twice shortlisted for the Man Booker prize, for number9dream and Cloud Atlas. Id like bus drivers to not bat an eyelid at an autistic passenger rocking. [2] His two subsequent novels, number9dream (2001) and Cloud Atlas (2004), were both shortlisted for the Man Booker Prize. I think this is well understood these days. Your vestibular and proprioceptive senses are also out of kilter, so the floor keeps tilting like a ferry in heavy seas, and youre no longer sure where your hands and feet are in relation to the rest of you. In this model, language is one subset of intelligence and, Homo sapiens being the communicative, cooperative bunch that we are, rather a crucial one, for without linguistic intelligence it's hard to express (or even verify the existence of) the other types. Click image or button bellow to READ or DOWNLOAD FREE Creative Lettering and Beyond: Inspiring tips, techniques, and ideas for hand lettering your way to Naoki Higashida reiterates repeatedly that no, he values the company of other people very much. I dont doubt it.) [4][5] The method has been discredited as pseudoscience by organizations including the American Academy of Pediatrics and the American Psychological Association (APA). AS: Higashida has written dream-like stories that punctuate the narrative. A few weeks ago, I was invited on to a podcast called Three Little Words. . In 2015, Mitchell contributed plotting and scripted scenes for the second season of the Netflix series Sense8 by the Wachowskis, who had adapted the novel for the screen, and together with Aleksandar Hemon they wrote the series finale. $10.81. What was the most valuable thing the book taught you?To assume intelligence. Their inclusion was, I guess, an idea of the book's original Japanese editor, for whom I can't speak. Created with Sketch. Written when he was 13, Naoki's book was discovered by the author of Cloud Atlas, David Mitchell, and his Japanese wife, K.A. Entitled The Reason I Jump, the book was a revelation for the couple who gained a deeper . But after discovering through Web groups that other expat Japanese mothers of children with autism were frustrated by the lack of a translation into English, we began to wonder if there might not be a much wider audience for Naoki Higashida. He's very considerate, fair and kind, and he tries to understand people. As an Autistic adult who works with children, I'm always looking for different books about Autism. Can you say what functional or narrative purpose they serve in the book? I even finally read Ulysses. Psychologist Jens Hellman said that the accounts "resemble what I would deem very close to an autistic child's parents' dream. DM: Definitely. So he has to do it in a very manual syllable-by-syllable manner. Review: The Reason I Jump - One Boy's Voice from the Silence of Autism, By Naoki Higashida, trs by David Mitchell and Keiko Yoshida. Scarier still are people willing to stoke fear of "foreign" groups to gain a base from which to grow power. All my birthday and Christmas presents were book tokens and a trip to either Foyles in London or Hudsons in Birmingham. One time, Keiko teamed up with Caroline Botelho in a ZOOM Do segment on how to make dream catchers. A. Abe, Hiroshi 781. Its successor, FALL DOWN SEVEN TIMES, GET UP EIGHT: A YOUNG MANS VOICE FROM THE SILENCE OF AUTISM, was published in 2017, and was also a Sunday Times bestseller. He is an advocate, motivational speaker and the author of several books of fiction and non-fiction. Narrated by Tom Picasso. And he suspects some people have a knee-jerk suspicion that people assisting with methods of communication are in fact providing the voice - which he stresses is not his experience. Higashida's writing is phenomenal-- especially given the fact that he struggles in writing sentences out himself and relies heavily on a laminated print out of a keyboard to develop the very sentences shown in the book. He has also written articles for several newspapers, most notably for The Guardian, and translated books about autism from Japanese to English. Its ridiculous in the process of translation, I went through it seven times and cried every time. . 1 . David Stephen Mitchell (born 12 January 1969) is an English novelist, television writer, and screenwriter. The book challenges stereotypes about autism. As the months turn into years forgetting can become disbelieving, and this lack of faith makes both the carer and the cared-for vulnerable to negativities. For me, the author would have been better publishing a book with these stories in it, rather than randomly slot them inside a book about Autism. I believed that 'Cloud Atlas' would never be made into a movie. Part memoir, part critique of a world that sees disabilities ahead of disabled people, it opens a window into the mind and world of an autistic, nonverbal young adult, providing remarkable . They flew over to Cork and we discussed how it might work on screen. If you want more insight into the life and mind of a young person with autism and dont have much of an understanding of what it is like to be autistic this book will probably be full of revelations for you. So we translated it and gave it to them, saying: Please, just read it. When my agent and editor heard about this, I asked them to print a few thousand as a personal favour, just so people in our position who dont speak Japanese could get access to it. Why are you so upset? "David Mitchell on Earthsea a rival to Tolkien and George RR Martin", "The Earthgod and the Fox", 2012 (translation of a short story by Kenji Miyazawa; translation printed in McSweeney's Issue 42, 2012). This combination appears to be rare. Every successful caste needs a metal mouth. I guess that people with autism who have no expressive language manifest their intelligence the same way you would if duct tape were put over your mouth and a 'Men in Black'-style memory zapper removed your ability to write: by identifying problems and solving them. And The Bone Clocks Author David Mitchell Transcends Them All. "Fifty years ago people like my son would have been locked up. If we go out to a restaurant, for a so-called date, and I'm deep in the dark period before a deadline, all I want to talk about is the book, because that's what I'm obsessed with. Anyone struggling to understand autism will be grateful for the book and translation.Kirkus Reviews. In the interview Stewart describes the memoir as "one of the most remarkable books I've read." Autism comes in a bewildering and shifting array of shapes, severities, colors and sizes, as you of all writers know, Dr. Solomon, but the common denominator is a difficulty in communication. View the profiles of people named Keiko Yoshida on Facebook. Or, the next time you're in you local bookshop, see if they have any Mary Oliver. Id like to push the thought-experiment a little further. Higashida's latest book, Fall Down 7 Times, Get Up 8, once again translated by Mitchell and Yoshida, was recently published by Knopf Canada. "I'd ask him a question, and he independently across the table tapped out an answer on his cardboard alphabet board - it's not easy for him, but he'd point to a letter in the Japanese hiragana alphabet, voice it, point to the next one, voice that. He has written nine novels, two of which, number9dream (2001) and Cloud Atlas (2004), were shortlisted for the Booker Prize. [24] Higashida allegedly learned to communicate using the discredited techniques of facilitated communication and rapid prompting method. He graduated from high school in 2011 and lives in Kimitsu, Japan. I really enjoy our conversations. 'It will stretch your vision of what it is to be human' Andrew Solomon, The TimesWhat is it like to have autism? There were startling overlaps between Naoki and our sons behaviours plus pretty persuasive explanations for those behaviours. Mitchell's novels that are mostly set in Japan are number9dream and The Thousand Autumns of Jacob de Zoet. Even when he cant provide a short, straight answersuch as to the question Why do you like lining up your toys so obsessively?what he has to say is still worthwhile. Amazing book made me very tearful I cried for days after and changed my whole mindset. All that in less than 200 pages? I ordered this book for my friend in Scotland who is trying to work with an autistic adult. "[19] On 3 June 2020, Kino Lorber acquired The Reason I Jump to film in the United States. Both Pablo and Keiko recalled being treated like celebrities in their schools after the show aired. David Mitchell: The world still thinks autistic people dont do emotions, dont treat an autistic person any differently to a neurotypical person. 10+ copies available online - Usually dispatched within two working days. Mitchell is the author of Cloud Atlas, The Bone Clocks, Number9Dream, Utopia Avenue and more. This English translation of The Reason I Jump is the result.The author is not a guru, and if the answers to a few of the questions may seem a little sparse, remember he was only thirteen when he wrote them. Phrasal and lexical repetition is less of a vice in Japanese - it's almost a virtue - so varying Naoki's phrasing, while keeping the meaning, was a ball we had to keep our eyes on. Follow us on Twitter: @globeandmailOpens in a new window. Help, when it arrived, came not from some body of research but from the writings of a Japanese schoolboy, Naoki Higashida. North Korean kids would be allowed to read anything not about their psychopathic Dear Leader. His third novel, CLOUD ATLAS, was shortlisted for six awards including the Man Booker Prize, and adapted for film in 2012. . Naoki Higashida was born in 1992 and was diagnosed with autism at the age of five. David Mitchell. Assume complete comprehension and act accordingly. . In an effort to find answers, Yoshida ordered a book from Japan written by non-verbal autistic teenager Naoki Higashida. 9.99. Keiko is of Japanese descent. (Although Naoki can also write and blog directly onto a computer via its keyboard, he finds the lower-tech alphabet grid a steadier handrail as it offers fewer distractions and helps him to focus.) Although the book is short in length, Naoki makes sure that his words are worth while and purposeful, leaving myself and my peers around me better members of society in relationship to people who have autism. They may contain usable ideas, but reading them can feel depressingly like being asked to join a political party or a church. Without wanting to, Id basket-cased my son. Poems and films, however, come to an end, whereas this is your new ongoing reality. Discounts, promotions, and special offers on best-selling magazines. I hope this book gives you the same immense and emotional pleasure that I have experienced reading it. . Bring your club to Amazon Book Clubs, start a new book club and invite your friends to join, or find a club thats right for you for free. Books. I think maybe I make more of an effort to eat up Japanese culture, partly out of deference to Kei, to show that I take her culture seriously and that I'm not just another pushy Westerner. There are many more questions Id like to ask Naoki, but the first words Id say to him are thank you., . All rights reserved. Buy Fall Down Seven Times, Get Up Eight: A Young Man's Voice from the Silence of Autism by Naoki Higashida, David Mitchell (Translator), Keiko Yoshida (Translator) online at Alibris. [Higashida] offers readers eloquent access into an almost entirely unknown world.The Independent (U.K.) Like millions of parents confronted with autism, Mitchell and his wife found themselves searching for answers and finding few that were satisfactory. Download Audiobooks written by Keiko Yoshida - translator to your device. Like Ishiguro, she kind of got better. New things in them float to the surface as my understanding of the world gets marginally less bent out of shape by illusions and self-delusions, as I age. Once we had identified that goal, many of the 1001 choices you make while translating became clear. Its young author, Naoki Higashida, has non-verbal autism, like my son, and Naoki's previous book The Reason I Jump was more illuminating and helpful than anything else my wife and I had read about the subject. The book doesnt refute those misconceptions with logic, it is the refutation itself. Id love that narrative to be changed. VOICE FROM THE SILENCE OF AUTISM by Naoki Higashida was published by Sceptre in a translation from the Japanese by David Mitchell and KA Yoshida and became a Sunday Times and New York Times bestseller. When I read these books I meet younger versions of myself, reading them. In addition to traditional media outlets, the book received attention from autism advocacy groups across the globe, many, such as Autism Speaks, conducting interviews with Mitchell. I had this recommended to me, so thought I'd give it a try. Just a beautiful thought provoking book. . The conclusion is that both emotional poverty and an aversion to company are not symptoms of autism but consequences of autism, its harsh lockdown on self-expression and societys near-pristine ignorance about whats happening inside autistic heads.For me, all the above is transformative, life-enhancing knowledge. Mitchell translated the autism memoir The Reason I Jump from Japanese to English with his wife, Keiko Yoshida. This isn't easy for him, but he usually manages okay. 2. Join Facebook to connect with Keiko Yoshida and others you may know. My wife ordered this book from Japan, began reading it at the kitchen table and verbally translating bits for me. Language, sure, the means by which we communicate: but intelligence is to definition what Teflon is to warm cooking oil. Vital resources for anyone who deals with an autistic child, Reviewed in the United States on January 7, 2023. I feel that it is linked to wisdom, but I'm neither wise nor funny enough to have ever worked out quite how they intertwine. David Mitchell. Together with her husband, Yoshida translated the Japanese non-fiction book The Reason I Jump (2013) by Naoki Higashida. We have to discuss things whenever we've got any small problem because we lose a lot of the nuances in each other's language, and I don't want to miss any nuances, as much as that's possible. The collection ends with Higashida's short story, "I'm Right Here," which the author prefaces by saying: I wrote this story in the hope that it will help you to understand how painful it is when you can't express yourself to the people you love.